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Midnight Masquerade

by Kit Citrine

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1.
[Verse 1] "Hey, how you been? I haven't seen you in" Here we go again (Here we go again) So I try to smile "Hey, yeah, it's been a while" Time to play pretend [Pre-Chorus] Don't see circles 'neath my eyes From sleepless nights I burned and cried And don't see that I'm broken inside [Chorus] Yeah, the glitz and glam and glitter's a cute charade A pretty little mask to keep the world unafraid (Yeah) I'll be the brightest star at the masquerade Midnight masquerade [Interlude] (Midnight masquerade) [Verse 2] Don't let it show Anywhere you go No one wants to know (Really wants to know) Even when they ask They just want your mask Keep the status quo (Keep the status quo) [Pre-Chorus] Don't see white strands in my hair From countless days full of despair And don't see that I'm beyond repair [Chorus] Yeah, the glitz and glam and glitter's a cute charade A pretty little mask to keep the world unafraid (Yeah) I'll be the brightest star at the masquerade Midnight masquerade [Bridge] I can entertain I can hide my pain In the masquerade (Midnight masquerade) I won't burden you With what's real and true In the masquerade (In the masquerade) [Chorus] Yeah, the glitz and glam and glitter's a cute charade A pretty little mask to keep the world unafraid (Yeah) I'll be the brightest star at the masquerade Midnight masquerade (Yeah) I'll be the brightest star at the masquerade Midnight masquerade
2.
Stardust 03:09
[Intro] (La da da da da da da da da) [Verse 1] The sound of your heartbeat in the dark Your soft kiss on my face The perfect protection in your arms We're more than soulmates [Pre-Chorus] You and me We're stardust [Chorus] We've crossed uncountable galaxies Through billions of years for this moment in time We'll be together forever No matter what form, it's your atoms and mine [Interlude] (La da da da da da da da da) [Verse 2] No force can part us anymore Test us and we'll pass it Ignore the storm outside the door We will outlast it [Pre-Chorus] You and me We're stardust [Chorus] We've crossed uncountable galaxies Through billions of years for this moment in time (This moment in time) We'll be together forever No matter what form, it's your atoms and mine And I know in my whole being I was always searching for you And I know a single lifetime's Not enough for me to adore you We're stardust [Bridge] (La da da da da da da da da) We're stardust (La da da da da da da da da) [Pre-Chorus] You and me We're stardust [Pre-Chorus] You and me We're stardust [Chorus] We've crossed uncountable galaxies Through billions of years for this moment in time (La da da da da) We'll be together forever No matter what form, it's your atoms and mine And I know, in my whole being I was always searching for you And I know a single lifetime's Not enough for me to adore you We're stardust [Outro] (La da da da da da da da da)
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Radical 02:58
[Intro] (“Stop crying”) (“Why don’t you just tone it down?”) (“Toughen up, snowflake”) (“Why do you even care so much?”) (“That’s so cringe”) (“Ha ha ha ha, oh my god!”) [Verse 1] I've been trained to be ashamed They say I'm soft, weak, a freak (Freak, freak) Mocked for my big open heart And my earnest empathy [Verse 2] Their way got me nowhere I just can't be what I'm not I'm going to embrace my traits And go miles and miles beyond [Chorus] Radical Radical Passionate Compassionate Tear down the wall If cold and cruel are conventional and cool It's not bad at all to be radical [Verse 3] The world around me is on fire I won't fan the flames It's subversive fighting it with grit and grace Picking class and taking names [Chorus] Radical (Radical) Radical (Radical) Passionate Compassionate Tear down the wall If cold and cruel are conventional and cool It's not bad at all to be radical [Bridge] I grasp at threads and try to stitch myself Hope the seams won't show to anybody else We try to climb, we're all damaged and broken down Let's smash our internalized lies to the ground [Chorus] Radical (Radical) Radical (Radical) Passionate Compassionate Tear down the wall If cold and cruel are conventional and cool It's not bad at all to be radical
4.
[Intro] (Zombie outbreak) [Verse 1] Birds sing sweetly in the trees Footsteps quicken on the path The scent of death lingers on the breeze Unraveling your paper map [Pre-Chorus] Then you hear the screams (Screams!) You know what that means [Chorus] Zombie outbreak Primal grunts and shuffled steps Thoughtless consumption Total destruction Zombie outbreak (Zombie outbreak) Trust your compass as your guide Objective tools are on your side Tired and jaded from constantly running Fighting the horde to stay alive Zombie outbreak (Zombie outbreak) Zombie outbreak (Zombie outbreak) [Verse 2] The rip of flesh and squish of brains Soulless decomposing eyes Unable to see their own remains There but for good sense go I [Pre-Chorus] You can’t escape the screams (Sc-screams! Sc-sc-screams!) You know what that means [Chorus] Zombie outbreak Primal grunts and shuffled steps Thoughtless consumption Total destruction Zombie outbreak (Zombie outbreak) Trust your compass as your guide Objective tools are on your side Tired and jaded from constantly running Fighting the horde to stay alive Zombie outbreak (Zombie outbreak) Zombie outbreak (Zombie outbreak) [Chorus] Zombie outbreak Primal grunts and shuffled steps (Ooooo) Thoughtless consumption Total destruction (Destruction, yeah!) Zombie outbreak (Zombie outbreak) Trust your compass as your guide Objective tools are on your side (I’m jaded, I’m jaded) Tired and jaded from constantly running (I’m trying to stay alive, yeah!) Fighting the horde to stay alive Zombie outbreak (Zombie outbreak) Zombie outbreak (Zombie! Zombie outbreak)
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[Verse 1] Last night, I stared up at the ceiling And tried to breathe My racing thoughts won’t give me a reprieve [Verse 2] Each day, I get the funny feeling We’ll spend all The rest of our days stuck within these walls [Chorus] But one day we’ll get away Take a plane or the interstate We’ll get out of this place It’s okay As long as I’m with you I don’t care where we go Whether there’s sand or snow As long as I can hold you close As long as I’m with you [Verse 3] Each time I get a little hopeful Stay inside again Inside again, inside ‘til who knows when [Chorus] But one day we’ll get away Take a plane or the interstate We’ll get out of this place It’s okay As long as I’m with you I don’t care where we go Whether there’s sand or snow As long as I can hold you close As long as I’m with you [Bridge] And I know that it’s responsible and kind to others And I know it’s lucky for us that we've had each other Even so I think we gotta get out, gotta get out And one day we’ll get out [Chorus] And one day we’ll get away (We’ll get away) Take a plane or the interstate (Oooooohoooo) We’ll get out of this place It’s okay (It’s okay) As long as I’m with you (I’m with you!) I don’t care where we go (I’m with you! We can go anywhere) Whether there’s sand or snow As long as I can hold you close As long as I’m with you
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[Intro] (Beep boop, beep boop) (Beep boop, beep boop) (Beep boop, beep boop) [Verse 1] There once was a little robot Who loved zeros and ones Programmed to calculate Inconceivable sums [Verse 2] Each day its algorithm Grew faster and smarter still Driven to make its creator proud And justify its bill [Pre-Chorus] Determined never to belong With the droids who'd gone wrong In the robot graveyard Every young robot learns No one ever returns From the robot graveyard [Chorus] The robot graveyard The robot graveyard [Verse 3] Then one day our robot friend Suffered a tiny glitch The robot's program went berserk It begged the creator to be fixed [Verse 4] No longer making revenue Another model rose to fame The robot was discarded No patch ever came [Pre-Chorus] They sent our little robot To suffer and rot In the robot graveyard Every young robot learns No one ever returns From the robot graveyard [Chorus] The robot graveyard No one ever returns (The robot graveyard) No one ever returns [Bridge] (Whoa!) What a surprise to find Droids with fulfilling lives Offbeat old machines Living out their wildest dreams Past what the robot knew Grass, trees and flowers grew And so the robot dreamed and sowed A life beyond binary code In the robot graveyard [Outro] (Beep boop, beep boop) (Beep boop, beep boop) No one ever returns (From the robot graveyard) (Beep boop, beep boop) And why would they?
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[Verse 1] Autumn had auburn hair Honey and amber eyes We met discussing poetry Became fast friends online [Verse 2] We'd talk until the sun came up Fell into flirting recklessly (Recklessly) Then her three-word confession turned Contentment to catastrophe (Catastrophe) [Pre-Chorus] That season was my favorite secret We couldn't expose it for all to see it [Chorus] How would life be different If I gave us a chance If I acknowledged I longed To return her brave advance If I accepted all of me All fears forgotten (Fears forgotten) If I embraced the allure of Astonishing Autumn (Astonishing Autumn) [Verse 3] Did Autumn cry? Hate my guts? Analyze each word we said? Write it off as some queerbait trick Her messages all left unread [Verse 4] When the days start getting short The air nutmeg and cinnamon (Ooooo) I remember Autumn's auburn hair And wonder how it could've been (Could’ve been) [Pre-Chorus] Had the world been kinder, had I been braver And I still think over a decade later [Chorus] How would life be different If I gave us a chance If I acknowledged I longed To turn friendship to romance If I accepted all we could be All fears forgotten If I embraced the allure of Astonishing Autumn (Astonishing Autumn) [Verse 5] Autumn had auburn hair Honey and amber eyes I wish I could find her now I wish I could apologize
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[Verse 1] She called me in tears Said, "Hey, can I chat with you?" "Yeah, whatever you need Is there anything I can do?" [Verse 2] (She said:) "Life has been hard Same stuff, but different day No fixes to find Why did things go this way? [Pre-Chorus] Wake up, feel like such a wreck Every day I wonder, will I make it to the next? Who's this? Is the old me dead? It's silly that I feel so proud of getting out of bed" [Chorus] Getting by when things aren't fine You're brave and You should be proud You've survived all your worst times You're strong and You should be proud You should be proud You should be proud [Verse 3] I'm down on myself (I’m feeling down) No part's safe from critique (Oooooo) Try as I may I'm my worst enemy [Verse 4] I focus on flaws Before they can say them first Holding the blade Won't change how much it hurts [Verse 5] I try and I try No matter how I gain ground It's never enough Why aren't I proud? [Pre-Chorus] Wake up, feel like such a wreck Every day I wonder will I make it to the next Who's this? Is the old me dead? It's silly that I feel so proud of getting out of bed [Chorus] Getting by when things aren't fine You're brave and You should be proud You've survived all your worst times You're strong and You should be proud [Chorus] Getting by when things aren't fine You're brave and You should be proud You've survived all your worst times You're strong and You should be proud [Outro] You don't need permission If you're alive and listening Then you should be proud Be proud, yeah You should be proud
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[Verse 1] It's lonely way up high Powerful enough to shift the tides But prey to outside forces Caught up in an unseen orbit [Pre-Chorus] As you feel yourself slipping away Remember it will be okay [Chorus] Sliver of silver light Keep on shining bright Go through your phase Of losing face Keep on and have faith You'll come back around Full and found Full of promise Celestial goddess Celestial goddess [Verse 2] The emptiness won't last You've gone through these stages in the past Your steps are all connected (They’re all connected) Stay strong and keep perspective [Pre-Chorus] As the darkness steals your smile Remember it's only for a while [Chorus] Sliver of silver light Keep on shining bright (Keep on shining, keep on shining) Go through your phase of losing face Keep on and have faith You'll come back around Full and found Full of promise (So much promise) Celestial goddess (Celestial goddess) Celestial goddess [Bridge] You have no idea how important you are (How important you are) What you mean to people you've never met You think you're drifting and directionless You're on a path you can't see yet (Ooo, soon you’ll see!) [Chorus] Sliver of silver light Keep on shining bright Go through your phase Of losing face Keep on and have faith (You’ve gotta keep on, gotta keep on!) You'll come back around Full and found (Celestial goddess) Full of promise Celestial goddess (Celestial goddess) Celestial goddess
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[Verse 1] Hey, I'd welcome you in, but I'm working on Patching up a dent left by some friends My sofa is an outdated shade of blush Not much here aligns with the trends [Verse 2] Roll your eyes at the retro rose-hued walls They've bested hurricane force winds I can point out every crack, chip, and mark Show all the house's secrets and sins [Chorus] This house grows older as all things do It's still my shelter and my refuge (My refuge) Sunrise to sunset, sunshine to rain Seasons will pass and aspects may change But in its bones and solid frame (In its bones, yeah) The house remains the same (The same) The house remains the same (The house remains the same) [Interlude] The house, the house, the house, the house The house, the house, the house, the house, the house, the house The house, the house, the house, the house The house, the house, the house, the house, the house, the house [Verse 3] Then imagine my shock when I saw Strange scars I never noticed before A textured painted-over patch of wall I tore it down and found a door [Verse 4] That blue room was at the center of the house Its existence felt completely new But that sapphire space was always inside Whether or not I overtly knew [Chorus] This house grows older as all things do It's still my shelter and my refuge Sunrise to sunset, sunshine to rain Seasons will pass and aspects may change But in its bones and solid frame The house remains the same The house remains the same The same The same The same [Verse 5] This old house has emotion and memory Carved in every last scar and stone No matter what I may uncover (No matter what) The house remains the same and it's my home (Home)
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[Chorus] We've got two purple ribbons Not for the faint of heart But our love has no conditions Two purple ribbons [Verse 1] White coats go in and out of doors Past white halls, white walls White forms with blank white spaces To make difficult calls [Verse 2] Gray skies as heavy rain pours down So hard that you can't see Gray news, grayer timelines Everything around turned gray to me [Chorus] We've got two purple ribbons Not for the faint of heart But our love has no conditions Two purple ribbons [Interlude] Da da da da da da da da da Da da da da da da Da da da da da da da da da Da da da da da da [Verse 3] Black skies littered with clouds and stars A walk in the late night breeze Black suits, a black binder The black guitar that he once gave to me [Chorus] We've got two purple ribbons Keep them close to the heart Yeah, our love has no conditions Two purple ribbons [Chorus] (Purple ribbons) We've got two purple ribbons (We love you, we love you) Keep them close to the heart Yeah, our love has no conditions (Purple ribbons) Two purple ribbons [Outro] Da da da da da da da da da Da da da da da da Da da da da da da da da da Da da da da da da
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Hollow 02:31
[Verse 1] Vacant and joyless As an after-hours carnival ride An empty tissue box Spent from all the tears I've cried (Cried) [Chorus] Hollow Hollow Carved out like a hollow tree Grief tore its way outside of me [Post-Chorus] Hollow Hollow [Verse 2] Nothing new will grow (Grow) A poison arrow struck me through Nothing works at all To mend the parts that died with you [Chorus] Hollow Hollow Carved out like a hollow tree Grief tore its way outside of me [Post-Chorus] Hollow Hollow [Bridge] TV to dissociate and then here comes your favorite show Driving 'round in silence 'cause I cannot trust the radio Desperate to declutter but I'd find something and think of you A thousand cuts will gut me through They're watching their watches for the time I should be over it Yeah, positive thinking and a smiley face should do the trick At least I can take their platitudes and attitudes in stride 'Cause I've got nothing left inside [Chorus] Hollow Hollow Carved out like a hollow tree Grief tore its way outside of me [Post-Chorus] Hollow Hollow
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Who You Are 03:42
[Intro] (I’ll always, I’ll always remind you) (I’ll always remind you who you are) [Verse 1] I grab your throat, a frantic whisper Eyes forced open to the realization You can't do this, awkward imposter Something bad is going to happen [Verse 2] Cringe at what you said last decade Shrink at clumsy interactions Drowning yet? You sorry joke You'll suffocate from your own actions [Pre-Chorus] Here's another defect not even on your radar I'll always remind you who you are [Chorus] Unloved and untalented Unworthy and inept Too strange and broken It's time that you accept The more you try to fight me The more I take control Don't try to get away from me I'll never let you go I'll always remind you who you are I'll always remind you who you are [Verse 3] You talk to friends, you laugh and smile Don't you see their eyes change focus? You're boring them, I know you see it They'll move on before you even notice [Pre-Chorus] But my eyes are on you, even from afar I'll always remind you who you are [Chorus] Unloved and untalented Unworthy and inept Too strange and broken It's time that you accept The more you try to fight me The more I take control Don't try to get away from me (Don’t you dare) I'll never let you go I'll always remind you who you are I'll always remind you who you are [Bridge] Positive affirmations, sun salutations Prescription pills, strength of will You'll never leave me behind Whatever you try, I'm always close by Waiting at the crack of the door to your mind [Chorus] Unloved and untalented Unworthy and inept (You’re unworthy) Too strange and broken It's time that you accept (Accept your fate) The more you try to fight me (Don’t fight me) The more I take control (I take control) Don't try to get away from me I'll never let you go I'll always remind you who you are (Don’t you know, don’t you know who you are?) I'll always remind you who you are (Who you are, who you are!)
14.
Demons 02:43
[Chorus] Oh, let's face these demons Beat them, defeat them Oh, demons [Verse 1] Copper, oh, I can't stand the taste (The taste) Black eye, new bruises on my face Won't last if I'm in another scrape But I can't back down (I can’t back down) [Verse 2] Cornered, my back against the brick Reeling from every punch and kick And, oh, wish it could be over quick But I'll stand my ground [Pre-Chorus] Can't change everything I face But I gotta face things for a change [Chorus] Oh, let's face these demons Beat them, defeat them Oh, demons [Verse 3] Hooded cloaks, dark and mysterious More and more, dangerous and serious They won't stop till I'm delirious They feel my heart pound [Bridge] They chose destruction and blew past my boundaries I can't pretend they're not a product of me (Not a product of me) If I take off their cowls, acknowledge what I see I have the power to shape what they'll be [Pre-Chorus] Can't change everything I face But I gotta face things for a change [Chorus] Oh, let's face these demons (I’m ready, I’m ready) Beat them, defeat them (Let’s go!) Oh, demons (We’ll face these demons) [Chorus] Oh, let's face these demons (They ain’t got nothin’ on me) Beat them, defeat them Oh, demons [Outro] Oh demons Let's face these demons Oh demons Let's face these demons
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[Verse 1] Afternoon monsoon, out there huddled together Pigtails on piggyback under an umbrella Like a page from my book, but it's not you and not me I sip my hot coffee made just like you taught me [Pre-Chorus] No one else can get through this for me No one else can live out my story No one else can write meaning in this allegory But now I've lost the whole plot line Life's torn into "after" and "before" time Now I've crossed that line, I'm not fine And I'm on my own [Chorus] Alone in the After Alone in the After Oh, how I wish I could go back a chapter Make this part go faster But no, time still flows While I'm frozen, alone in the After (Alone in the After) [Verse 2] Midnight moonlight, way before my alarm rings My love holds me tight as my mind just replays scenes Like I scan the same lines over and over with my eyes I agonize, cry, and I think of Sunrise [Pre-Chorus] No one else can get through this for me No one else can live out my story No one else can write meaning in this allegory But now I've lost the whole plot line Life's torn into "after" and "before" time Now I've crossed that line, I'm not fine And I'm on my own [Chorus] Alone in the After Alone in the After Oh, how I wish I could go back a chapter Make this part go faster But no, time still flows While I'm frozen, alone in the After (Alone in the After) [Bridge] If only I could ask for your guidance (Guidance) But all I'm left with is silence [Chorus] Alone in the After Alone in the After Oh, how I wish I could go back a chapter Make this part go faster But no, time still flows While I'm frozen, alone in the After (Alone in the After)

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After the title track to set the tone, this autobiographical album flows chronologically through Kit Citrine's experiences and emotions from the start of the pandemic through their dad's passing in March 2022. It explores the ups and downs, the joys and sorrows, the life-changing events to the small, everyday occurrences. "Midnight Masquerade" covers a lot of tough, vulnerable themes, but at its core it's about humanity and connection in a time when it was difficult to find either one.

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released September 16, 2022

Music, lyrics, arrangements, performance, and production by Kit Citrine.

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Kit Citrine Orlando, Florida

Kit Citrine is a powerhouse singer, songwriter, and music producer with over 25 years of experience in the entertainment industry. Her debut album, Midnight Masquerade, showcases her unique blend of pop, rock, and musical theatre with influences such as Paramore, Demi Lovato, Taylor Swift, and Florence and the Machine. Kit writes deeply honest, vulnerable music that speaks to the soul. ... more

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